Chapter 12 "The Moment of Truth" ~ Entry 54: "Otouto!" Amiboshi We talked. N-not only...is he not angry at me... He... *tears spill over* He feels the same way! I-I've never felt so...so relieved... Now more than ever, I want this war to end... I want peace...I want everything to be all right. Entry 55: "Aniki!!" Suboshi He feels the same way! He isn't angry at me! I knew it! *collapses to his knees, sobbing with relief* Aniki... From now on, I'm fighting for peace and the end of this war. Whatever it takes... Entry 56: "Small comfort" Suboshi I wish I could say all my problems were solved now. Sadly, my brother and Yui-sama were only a fraction of the big picture. I wish this stupid war would end just so I wouldn't have to put up with those damned Suzaku Seishi anymore. I still hate them, especially that bandit bastard. The only thing that gets me through the days is knowing Amiboshi is here with me. That he loves me. Last night, he was talking about the kind of lives we could be living right now if not for the war...going to school, having good jobs, a nice place to live... He's such a dreamer, that brother of mine. *smiles* But as tempting as all that sounded, all that really matters is that we're together. I know how sappy that sounds, but...I mean it. Still, it would be really nice to live normal lives... Entry 57: "Fear inspires" Amiboshi I witnessed an innocent bystander's death an hour ago. During one of the usual violent fights. Nakago was aiming for Tamahome and hit a teenage boy. He looked to be about mine and Suboshi's age. Fifteen. *shudders* Suzaku Seishi Chiriko was only thirteen when he died... *clutches his chest* I feel sick...I-I can't take any more of this. I'm so afraid... Otouto...w-we can't stay here anymore. It's too dangerous, I don't want anything to happen to you...or me... We have to get away from all of this. We have to leave Kutou. As soon as possible. Entry 58: "Running away?" Suboshi Last night, Aniki said...he wants us to run away from Kutou, away from the war. I wanted to agree with him so badly, but...running away might be even more dangerous than staying. I don't want to put him in more danger than I already have. And even if Kutou is a death trap, I don't care...as long as he's here with me. Just lying in bed, feeling his warm body pressed close to mine, hearing his voice...I feel so safe with aniki. I have a feeling the war may be ending soon... Yet I fear...one or both of us won't be there to enjoy it... *shudders* Why do I suddenly feel...that the next battle may...be my last?