Chapter 13
"The Cruelty of Fate; A Sad Farewell"


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Entry 59: "Fear"
Amiboshi

Suboshi told me his fear of not coming back from the next battle alive...
I honestly didn't think he was so afraid. He told me what happened, 
happened...and no use worrying.
*sigh* I still want us to run away from Kutou...but it would be even more 
dangerous than staying. He's right.
If one of us is going to die in battle, I...I'd rather it was me...
As long as I knew he would have a safe place to stay, or someone to care 
for him...I would give my life to protect my brother.



Entry 60: "Cold"
Amiboshi

His fate has been sealed....
I dreamed again last night, images of his death play in my mind over and 
over...
I can't stop shaking...
I don't want to lose him, not now, not ever...
Otouto...
*collapses to his knees, sobbing violently*



Entry 61: "I don't want to die..."
Suboshi

But I'm afraid my next battle will be my last.
It's inevitable...
Aniki...please forgive me. I...I have but one life to live...one life to 
give...
Amiboshi...I ask of you...please don't stop me. As much as I don't want 
to leave you...I can't run from fate...if I don't stop them, who knows 
what they're capable of? The bandit has issues with Yui-sama, Tamahome 
will risk life and limb to protect his one true love Suzaku no Miko, 
Hotohori will do anything to avenge his Nuriko...
I can't let them come after you, aniki. I can't!
Please...
Don't cry for me, beloved aniki...
I love you.
Never forget that.
   -Suboshi



Entry 62: "My soul has been torn apart"
Amiboshi

*manages to stop crying long enough to report the bad news*
H-he's gone...
Suboshi...
My beloved brother...
Dead...
I-it was a few hours ago, I-I can still feel the gaping hole in my 
chest...wh-where he was torn from my soul...my heart...
I-it was the exact same Suzaku Seishi from my dream...Tamahome, Tasuki, 
and Hotohori...
It was a close match...h-he almost had them...but something went wrong, 
his weapon...backfired...
His death...I felt it...like something was being torn from me...a stab in 
my heart...
I-I wasn't there...Yui filled me in on what basically happened...
His last words were of us both...
"Yui-sama...aniki...itoshii aniki...forgive me..."
*breaks down in violent sobs once more*
Otouto...
R-rest well...otouto...I-I love you, I always have, a-and I always will...