Chapter 14
"Aftermath of a Tragedy"



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Entry 63: "Nothing"
Amiboshi

It hurts.
Every minute of every day without him.
Hurts.
Miaka came by last night to console me...it was so awkward, we hadn't 
spoken in so long...
She's as wonderful as she always was. Kind, warm...she held me in her 
arms, her voice was so soft in my ear...
I still love her, I guess.
But it just...isn't the same as my brother.
We'd finally said we loved each other only weeks ago...
Was it that long ago?
It seems like...only yesterday, we sat outside, looking at the stars, 
wrapped in each other's arms.
I miss him...I miss hearing his voice, feeling his embrace, looking into 
his eyes...
'Aniki'...
I'd give anything to hear that again from him...anything...
Otouto...



Entry 64: "Broken"
Amiboshi

I can't even cry anymore...it hurts, but I've run out of tears.
*sighs*
I still hear his voice...sometimes it's...like he never even left.
'Aniki...'
Then I remember he's gone...
I feel so dead inside lately...
I'd give my soul just...to see you again, otouto...even for a second...
I miss you.



Entry 65: "Tribute"
Amiboshi

kusa no fue fuki kaze ni nose
mugi no umi koe
futasu no kodou deau hi wa
sakuya no sadame
    The playing of a reed flute carries on the wind
    over the sea of wheat.
    Last night's destiny
    was to be the day that two beats meet.

nagaki hi wo hitori sugoshi
tomoshibi ni te wo kazasu
haru wo matsu fuyu no you ni
tagai no kokoro wa
    Spending a long day alone,
    I spread my hand before shade
    Each of our hearts
    is like winter that waits for spring,

natsukashii sora no shita
kusa ikire
yuuhi no nagorimichi saita
hana no you
kataranai kuchibiru ni
fue wo ate
    Underneath the dear nostalgic sky
    The scent of grass
    The setting sun's farewell path bloomed,
    like a flower.
    I put a flute
    to lips that don't speak.

tooku no kumo hedatsu toki sae
umeyou to
    Only time separates the distant clouds...
    Let's try to fill it

kanaderu neiro mizu wo uchi
ai no mune saku
futatsu no kodou hikiyoseru
midareru omoi
    The tone that plays hits the water,
    tearing the love in my heart.
    The two beats draw near
    Disturbed thoughts

aoi fune futari nosete
itamu kizu wakachiau
fuan ya osoreru kimochi
ai kara mamotte
    Riding a blue ship together
    We share a painful wound.
    Protect love from
    uneasiness and fear.

yuudachi nikushimi mo dou ka
aratte yo
kage wo fumu komichi aruita
ano hi e
    Evening showers, please wash away
    hate as well.
    Stepping on shadows, I walked along the path
    to that day.

tourou kawa ni nagashite
oikaketa
    I chased after
    lanterns floating on the river.

chiisa na itoshisa ni afureta
kishi ni tatsu
    Overfilled with a little affection,
    I stand on the shore.

natsukashii sora no shita
kusa ikire
yuuhi no nagorimichi saita
hana no you
kataranai kuchibiru ni
fue wo ate
    Underneath the dear nostalgic sky
    The scent of grass
    The setting sun's farewell path bloomed,
    like a flower.
    I put a flute
    to lips that don't speak.

chiisa na itoshisa ni afureta
kishi ni tatsu
    Overfilled with a little affection,
    I stand on the shore.
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For you...my beloved brother. I miss you more than anything.
I love you.
*closes his eyes, a single tear sliding down his cheek*